Once again, Hello!

Hello again, Dear readers.

The year following my broken engagement has been hectic. I feel like I've grown and done so much...
My entire demeanor and mindset has changed once again.

-The living situation is obviously ever-changing. I moved out of my ex-fiance's house and into my First Love's home. He was 'going through a divorce' but never actually did. The jackass. I moved back into Mom's for about 6 months before I moved in with my cousin. We now share a little home. He has one side, I have the other, and it works out very well.

I've also been on a dating site once again, and serial dating like no other. I started meeting a couple guys a week just to put myself back out there. I do enjoy dating. I've gotten to meet some neat and very cool guys. Some that creeped me out... others that scared the heebie-jeebies out of me.. but for the most part, I've had fun.
I'm forcing myself to be the mature, good girl. I've never put that much effort into it before. I've noticed that on this particular site, even the guys who seem to have the best intentions are only after that one thing. They're initially alright with not just hooking up, but soon disappear after a couple normal dates.
I'm pretty awesome, no doubt about that lol... but I want something real and lasting. I found that when I did sleep with a guy too soon, he was instantly out of the picture. Across the board.
I'm no dead fish... and I'm worth more than just another notch. It's frustrating and sad.
Maybe by being temporarily celebate... I'll find one worth keeping?
I hope so.

I'm ready for my angel.


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I also am no longer taking those Zantrex-3 pills.
Yes, they kept me pretty thin because I wasn't eating as much, but the mental toll they took on me was not worth it. I had more panic attacks and paraniod delusions than I care to admit.
Now that I've been off them for months and months, my head is clear. I've grown my balls back. I'm happier.
I've also grown to love my curves.

I plan on doing my first 5k this May. I love running at night. I don't have the best endurance, but it's a work in progress and I have something to aim for.

I also purchased the Focus T25 system.
It's incredibly intense. I find that I can't work out for 2 days after a workout because my body is not used to being so physically challenged. Everything is tight and sore. Just remember, every workout only makes me stronger.

More to come,
more witty humor... I promise.
Kids are hungry.

<3 Friggie