Overwhelmed by Spring Cleaning and Lack of Boyfriend

I'm in such a funky mood.
I'm trying to get my house in perfect order, but I'm so antsy. I've been working on things as quickly as possible, yet there's no end in sight. Isn't that always how it goes?

After work, I came home and ripped up the carpet in the spare room (with the help of my cousin). I sprayed down the bathroom with cleaner, put smelly good powder crap all over the carpets, collected all the laundry, cleaned out the fridge, took out the trash, reorganized everything I've been storing (meaning, taking all the boxes and stacking them again in a different order), and going through every piece of clothing the girls and I own. I'm donating 2 full black trash bags of clothes we no longer use. I'm storing another 2 bags of clothes my youngest will soon grow into. I still need to hang everything up.

I'm frazzled. I've done so much, yet it looks like I've done nothing, and I am exhausted.
And I still have yet to go grocery shopping :/


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Anyway,

I haven't said anything about my promotion. They've decided to try me out as the new company credit manager. I've been in training for about a month, and I absolutely love this job. I get to do a bit of accounting and bookkeeping, make sure everything balances, fix problems. I feel like I'm doing something important. It's about time I got myself a career.


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Man life is a bit nonexistant at the moment.

I've dated quite a bit, and enjoyed it mostly, but I really do want a relationship. It's been about a year since I've been a 'girlfriend' and I wouldn't mind having that title again with someone I can care for and depend on.
The problem isn't finding someone who loves me... they tend to fall rather quickly... The problem is ME. I just don't get any feelings for guys all that often.

I've been in such an emotional tug-of-war with myself and my dudes that I guess I've switched off my ability to return romantic gestures. I've tried. Believe me, God, I've tried. It just doesn't click. I've had my heart broken a little too much, and I'm pretty much Sasquatch. Cold. Bitter. Fuzzy.

Note to me: book a wax session.

This year alone:
Broken engagement with a guy I'd been with nearly 4 years.
Tryst with first love ending in absolute hatred and disgust.
Dated a man who is everything I've ever wanted and then some, fell too hard, got friendzoned.
Miserable.
Dating site.
Meeting 2-3 blokes per week.
Completely captivated by a total Adonis. Banged. Never heard from him again.
Pissed.
Dating site.
Met a sweetheart. I guess he's still a Facebook Friend? Lost touch.
Met a younger guy who says all the right things. Liking it. Lives 45 minutes away.
Hm.


I don't know. I'm lonely.
Everything in my life has fallen into place through all of this though.
I'm exercising, cooking and eating healthy, delicious meals, I've got the career, kids are happy....
Why doesn't this fall into place too?